I do kind of miss the pills....

It was a year ago wasn't it, all the fear, the anger feelings inadequacy. It all worked out didn't it though? In the end it changed who I am and how I view life, relationships, family, and friends, not all the change has been great; it was like laying down new tracks and now I see that some are crooked, I'll have to go back and make some adjustments.
It was my intention to be reborn and renewed, I owe it to Jubi, my family and my beloved friends.

Just don't get it

The rain is back for good, or till mid spring......
It's a bad time, the dark cold, wet and lonely world that keeps up locked away, held captive in our selves....
If you have someone to cozy up with cheers to you, otherwise....

I found it!

The key to the ten thousand locks that have held me for so long now, and at last I can begin to do the tedious task of unlocking them all.....

Blindfolded in a dark room...

Did I mention gagged?
Not allowed to ask...
Led wherever you feel, at your whim.

Ummm....

With all that we've already been though with this, tell me this is not some sick game?
She's not going to say something devastating right?

Then you can tell me goodbye...

What's worse you being so close, but not having you, or you being so far out of reach and never setting eyes on you again?
This I will ponder....
So I must lose you twice?

Doing it all over again....can we make it right?

What is all this to you, I wonder?
Are you happy, do I make you happy again?
Why now?
Are you just having fun?